Saturday, July 6, 2013

Enjoy Early Morning Rise...




As much as I love cuddling in his arms to sleep until the sun raised. I also find myself couldn't sleep past 6am. Being an Entrepreneur somehow would instantly tickle me get up early.
I found early risers are more productive in the morning because of the energy I could get due to early rise. It makes a difference between late risers and early evening. Early risers are more productive in the morning and less productive in the afternoon.
Amazing mornings are perfect for me... I'm ready waking up with willpower. Then in all I wish in the afternoon that I could fall into his arms again, quietly reading or listening to the music...

Thursday, July 4, 2013

4th of July


May the morning sun bring hope and luck to our nation today as we are celebrating more than 200 years of our Independence. Thanks America.

Hope everyone has a lovely holiday! Be safe!

Have fun!

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Reading morning By Rachel Emma Silverman

How Workplace Bullies Get Ahead

It can pay to be a bully.
In a rather disheartening study, a team of researchers led by Darren C. Treadway, of the University at Buffalo School of Management, found that many workplace bullies receive positive evaluations from their supervisors and achieve high levels of career success, despite organizational efforts to curtail bullying.
The researchers sought to study the relationship between workplace bullying and job performance. They collected behavioral and job-performance data from 54 employees of a U.S. health-care firm, and found a strong correlation between bullying, positive job evaluations and social and political skill in the workplace.
The study defines workplace bullying as “systematic aggression and violence targeted towards one or more individuals by one individual or by a group.”
The researchers found that many bullies thrive by charming their supervisors and manipulating others to help them get ahead, even while they abuse their co-workers. Because many bullies can “possess high levels of social ability,” they are “able to strategically abuse co-workers and yet be evaluated positively by their supervisor,” the authors write.
“If people are politically skilled, they can do bad things really well,” says Dr. Treadway.
(Political skill, Dr. Treadway says, is “the ability to effectively understand others at work and to use such knowledge to influence others to act in ways that enhance one’s personal and/or organizational objectives.”)
The study notes that workplace bullying is prevalent: About half of all U.S. employees have witnessed workplace bullying and more than a third have been the target of bullying, according to past research.
The researchers suggest that firms assess civility and camaraderie as part of performance and help staff develop skills to manage bullies.
The study was published earlier this year in the Journal of Managerial Psychology

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Tuesday, It’s hard because I know better.




I did sleep good last night after I took many PM pills... Thanks God. 
I read Frank's funny note to me and I smiled a tiny... Thanks Frank.
I read the interview about Channing Tatum and his relationship, his wife Jenna on my iPad. It's normal but feel very great to know that he was really keeping up the love-life-family inspired for long time. 
I just wanted to let you know that I am still here. And yes, things are tough for me right now and my heart aches, my body hurt and I'm stressed. But I'm okay and I will be alright.

Monday, July 1, 2013

Monday, Working from Home because I Was Physically Hurt



I have my period today so my body was just in pain deeply. You would think I should take some Midol that will solve the PM problem.

Frankly, it seemed help just a bit. For some reason, I feel the pain was raw, deep ache this time. I've also been so sad lately... Emotional and physical were off the track that could make my whole body was physically hurt terrible.

The pain was hardest ever. I couldn't go to work today. I had to take extra PM pain relief that could knock me down... There was nothing I can do to help. I just had to take it easy and direct work from home.

It's so tough. All I just wanted to hide myself under the blanket to sleep...forever... It's the second times I had this feeling since his absent that I wanna die too. I used to be his strong woman but no longer. You would think with time gone it would get a bit easier or less. Nope. I know it came back today... It's sneaking inside me.

When he was here it's fine. Everything is perfect. I would skip a day or two and stay at home. I would be able to sleep peaceful after I take PM pain relief. I shouldn't have to worry that work had fallen so behind. He would manage business, food for the house, tip toes and rub my tummy with my favor hot oil. I would just sleep like a baby...

It's hitting hard this time. I really feel ill and fever. I really want to dug a nice big black hole and crawled into it. I just wanted to disappear forever...

Enough with crushing sadness and my PM period, I was lucky fall asleep a bit... I dreamed that he was touching my belly and holding me from behind. I felt it was so real... so my hand tried to find his then... I woke up in sobbing. I could feel my tears were making the pillow wet.


And life has kept going and moved on. I'm still stuck and struggling. I'm completely break down this time.
It's getting dark out side and the night is going to be longest ever since...




Sunday, June 30, 2013

Sunday at Kahala Beach









Dog's Sunday, yes?

 


It's Sunday again. What are you doing my Love?
I woke up and love seeing my neighbor's dogs were having a relaxing and happy playing Sunday morning in our back yard. 


Just a quick though went through my mind that I was a bit of jealous of they were being so lucky! They have each other for Sunday morning. 



How I wish you were here... having coffee and reading Sunday Newspaper in bed with me as we always did.


 

Do dogs have empathy? Do they know when I am happy or sad?